Heartbreak

I'm like Taylor Swift but in different way. I'm not talking about her flawlessness and her pretty face I'm talking about writing. She was writing songs about her ex's and there's me writing some poems and story NOT to my ex's boyfriend but ex's crush. I write some couple of poems about it but no one still haven't read it. I'm gonna share the poem I write for my first crush when I was at high school. believe it or not he is my only crush when I'm a high school. I write this poem the day my friend said that he was already have a girlfriend and that was tough day on me. I remember sobbing while writing this.. We're still friends though :) Hoping he will not gonna read this or else it's going to be so AWKWARD! :D haha

HEARTBREAK

You can't commit, I know this now

I fell so deep, I don't know how

I thought you were true, the real McCoy

You're a grown ass man, yet act like a boy.

I deserve more than you've given, a whole lot more,

And I can't stand here waiting to see what's in store.

I know it's complicated and not so easy you see,

But you'll kick yourself later for not being with me.

I was willing to risk it all for you,

Impossible love, in my heart I know.

Wanting to believe and hold on tight,

knowing all along it wasn't right

I'm moving on with my heart in my hand

I hope someday you'll understand

And don't live to regret thee choices you made,

Because by then it'll be too late.

Know that I loved you with all that I had,

I'm leaving heartbroken, teary eyed and sad,

But I know that it's something I surely most do

And it doesn't matter that I still love you.

No Longer Want To Be With You

You thought he was the right one for you and instead now it’s over. And as you cry, as you are disappointed and full of regrets you see everything black…

The end of a story is never pleasant, even if the feeling isn’t like the one at the beginning, it is always painful. Let’s see how you can get out of it as quick as possible, smiling back again and with the will to lay again.

• First of all, accept it. You may be angry, desperate, offended, but at the end, life goes on and day by day you will accept this situation. Consider time as your ally!

• Try gathering your ideas and look at the reality: you may transform a moment of deep sadness in a moment to grow up. Think about all the things that didn't work well in your relationship and that with time would have brought to a total break: it’s a precious lesson for your future.

• Let yourself go with your friends, they always know how to cheer you up, give you good advice, distract you with shopping, the beauty center or an only women evening!

- Well hello there, I haven't write a blog for a long time, I'm kind of busy at school, there are a lot of homework's to do and review. I need to be focus on my studies because in just a few months the school will end and i want to pass on this year (: but I will blog all my poems and others...if I've got any time. 

Lost Girl

hi. I don't really don't know what to blog this week so i just decided to share what I write about that one lost girl. I write this blog September 29,2013 in a piece of paper while I was bored at school. :) x

There was this one girl dreaming a happy life. Every night she keep imagine things that are impossible to happen. She cant stop imagining those things in her mind at night until she fall sleep. She love listening to music because it was her only way to escape on this unhappy and judgemental world. She loved being alone but sometimes she hate it too. She was too shy to everything that even when she's wearing a sweater she still want to hide her hands on the jacket. She was sensitive that every word that she don't want to hear make her really mad but she still keep the sweet smile in her face. She had a hard heart to everyone who hurt her, she never forget those people who make her cry and broke her. People always bully her because of her weight. She loved being alone because no one was really there for her. No one help her when she was unhappy. People around her always think she was happy everyday of her life because no matter how broken she is, she was still smiling and making the other people laugh or smile. She don't trust a lot of people and she don't have a lot of friends. She doesn't even know if she really have a real friends. Music is her best friend, the real best friend. Every people who are important in her life don't know her anymore. She was afraid to fall in love already because of whats happen in her past. She fall in love so hard 3 times and her heart been broken 3 times also and those heartbreaks are her most nightmare in her life. She teach herself not to get attach to guys easily. She can still feel the pain in her heartShe never saw herself happy already the way like before. She can't forgive those people who break her into pieces. She's afraid to laugh at loud or be happy so much because the last time she do that something wrong happen. She feel so talentless. She feel like she's the biggest mistake in this world. She was know as the outcast girl and the biggest loser in school. She cant share her opinion on everyone because she's too afraid that people labeled her opinion as lame. People make fun at her as always and it ripped her heart when she hears them laughing while looking at her. Every time she closed her eyes all she can see was her unhappy memories and those people who hurt her. She want to revenge to everyone who hurt her but she doesn't know how to do it. And now she cant already picture how beautiful life is. She cant find herself because she was lost already in a dark world and no one is trying to find her!