Fantasy in a fairytale...

Not About Angels by Birdy

A part of me wants to kill the you
that I once knew so I don't have to
deal with all this pain anymore,
Why do you get to run away and live
life, and why do I get stuck with all
this reoccurring guilt dragging me down.
I tried contacting you two months back
but you never answered...
You said that we would still be friends,
and you said you'd always be there for
me at my lowest moments, You said
that you loved me, and that you would
never hurt me; what happened?
Did I do something wrong? Did i stop
interesting you like a brand new  toy
to a three year old? What happened
to the passionate stories of our future?
Did this drift away like the man I used
to know?

I sat in a crowded room with joyous
people. It was meant to lift my spirits
but it did not work, I sat there wondering
how long it takes for a human to die if
they are exposed to acid, and when you
hang yourself do you still struggle.
And through all this suicidal thoughts
and existential crisis that I was having,
I still thought back to you. No matter
how sad I was, you could make me
smile and fell like a queen when no
one else could. And how you promised
you'd be there for me! And the nights,
I spent praying to some higher
authority that you would come back
But you NEVER did...
To this day, I don't know if it's the
pain of nostalgia, or if I miss the
lies you fed me. Either way, you
broke me down and convinced
me that love is nothing but a
fantasy in a fairytale...


- When you remember your heartbreak and words just keep spilling in your mind all you need to do is grab a piece of paper and a pen then just simply write all the words. </3