Infinite Playlist: 5 Seconds Of Summer//

so this time in my Infinite playlist I decided to put 5 Seconds Of Summer. They're one of my favorite band. If you don't know them, I'll tell you a little bit! ;)

5 Seconds Of Summer also known as 5SOS, they are originaly from Sydney Australia. 5SOS is an Australian Pop Rock Band, they formed in 2011. The band consist of Luke Hemmings (lead vocals, guitar) Calum Hood (vocals, guitar) Michael Clifford (vocals, guitar) and Ashton Irwin (vocals, drums). 5 Seconds Of Summer began in December 2011 when Luke Hemmings, Michael Clifford and Calum Hood, who all attended the same school, joined together and started posting videos of themselves performing covers of popular songs to youtube. 

Luke Hemmings, Calum Hood &

Michael Clifford singing "Next

To You by Chris Brown and J.B

Luke Hemmings singing Please Don't

Go by Mike Posner this is also the

first video they posted in their own

youtube account.

This video is their first cover with

their new drummer Ashton Irwin. The

song called Teenage Dirtbag.

The band attrached some keen interest from major music labels and publishers and have signed a publishing deal with Sony ATV Music Publishing. Their first music release, an EP entitled Unplugged was reached number 3 on the iTunes chart in Australia and Top 20 in both New Zealand and Sweden.

The One Direction member Louis Tomlinson posted the link to their Youtube video of their song "Gotta Get Out", stating that he'd been a fan of 5SOS "for a while". Following the release of their first single "Out Of My Limit", on 19 of November 2012 Niall Horan tweeted the link of the video.

5 Seconds Of Summer Gotta Get Out

(acoustic) - That video is the one

that Louis Tomlinson shared.

This is their first single "Out

of Limit" - This video is the one

that Niall Horan tweeted.

December 2012 the boys embarked on a songwriting trip to London, where they have written with various artist including McFly, Roy Stride of Scouting For Girls, Nick Hodgson of Kaiser Chiefs, Jamie Scott, Jake Gosling, Steve Robson and James Bourne of Busted. On 14th of February 2013, it was announced that 5 Seconds of Summer would support One Direction on their worldwide Take Me Home tour in the UK, USA, Australia and New Zealand including 7 shows at Allphones Arena in 5SOS home town of Sydney. On 21 November 2013 the band announced that they had signed to Capitol Records.

One Direction and 5 Seconds Of

Summer singing Teenage Dirtbag

+ pie fight Oct. 30, 2013

ONE DIRECTION & 5 SECONDS OF SUMMER

5 Seconds Of Summer are currently working on their debut album. But on 5th of February 2014 5SOS listed their worldwide debut single "She Looks So Perfect" for pre-order on iTunes. Within two days it had reached the number one position in 39 countries. The official music video was directed by Frank Borin. It was released to Youtuve on 24 February 2014. It gained over 1 million views within 24 hours. 5 Seconds Of Summer are currently on tour in UK and they will also having a concert in USA & Canada in April and it was already sold out. Their record name is "HI OR HEY RECORDS"

She Looks So Perfect official MV

How did I discover them? It started just last year when I accidentaly open the Gotta Get Out acoustic after hearing it, I get so addicted to them so fast and started downloading all their songs and followed them on twitter, tumblr and instagram. Everyday I fall for them deeper and deeper. Trust me you'll be addicted to them when you listen to their songs, they are not just a band, they are a weird band, I love how they expressed their love to their dedicated fans all over the world. Yes. I'm obsessed to other bands too but my obsession to 5 Seconds Of Summer already hit my limit and I don't have any plans of quiting on them. I will forever gonna support them no matter what. Their songs give me hope everytime i failed and their songs are also the one that make me smile. Even though they don't know that I exist I will forever gonna hold on them. I really want to meet them someday and tell them how much I loved them and have so much respect in everything they do for us as their fans. :)

Heartbreak Girl

Try Hard

Whenever You Are

5 SECONDS OF SUMMER ALL SONGS!

FACTS ABOUT 5 SECONDS OF SUMMER

Luke Hemiming's Facts

D.O.B:  July 16, 1996

Birth Name: Luke Robert Hemmings

Star Sign: Cancer

Age: 18

Education: Year 11 and attended Norwest Christian College

Relationship Status: Single

Parents: Liz Hemmings and Andrew Hemmings

Siblings: Ben Hemmings and Jack Hemmings

Celebrity Crush: Mila Kunis

Fun Facts:

•  Luke has 2 brothers.
• His dog’s name is Molly.
• Luke supports Cronulla Sharks in NRL.
• One of Luke’s favourite TV shows is How I Met Your Mother.
• Luke’s perfect date would be going to the beach and Cold Rock afterwards.
• At a concert, Luke said, “Alright, this is a new song, it’s called ‘All I Need’. Yes, this song is about boobs.”
• Luke’s first youtube video was uploaded on February 3rd, 2011.
• Luke says he is the most responsble out of the band, and always takes things more seriously.
• Luke has never seen the Titanic.
• Luke and Calum both have matching singlets and they “accidentally” both wore them to band practice one day.
•  Luke is pure Australian.
• Luke’s mom is a math teacher.
• Luke is in extension maths and he “dominates” science according to Michael.
• Luke said in a Ustream, a while ago, that he wanted to get a piercing on his eyebrow.
• Ashton says Luke gives the best hugs in the band. 
• Luke likes to have “intimate sessions with Luke Hemmings” on twit cams.
• Luke says chocolates from fans taste better than stuff he buys himself.
• Luke and Calum go to the gym.
• The first time Luke has been over seas is when the boys went to London.
• Luke’s favorite singer is Josh Ramsay.
• Luke’s and Calum’s favourite movie is Anchor Man.
• Luke said him and Calum would probably die first if zombies came because Michael is the ultimate gamer and would know what to do.
• He said the youngest age he would date is 13 (2012).
• Luke says he’s not much of a face booker.
• Luke’s favourite icecream flavor is cookies and cream.
• Luke eats the most in the band, and he says he’s always hungry.
• His favorite color is blue.
• Luke said he wants to book out a whole Nando’s and have dinner there with the boys and all of the 5SOS family.
• Luke’s favourite animal is a penguin.
• He likes ham & cheese.
• Luke’s mom says that he is the master of losing things.
•  He lost his iPhone in Melbourne after the tour, and all of the boys were teasing him about his old Nokia.
• Luke follows the Sydney Swans in AFL.
• Luke is amazing at snow boarding.
• He plays soccer.
• Luke enjoys the movie 17 Again & Monsters Inc. 
• Luke is an uncle.
• His favourite song on the EP is “Beside You”.
• Luke won the 5SOS Pizza Hut ice-cream eating competition. He said he had “like 17 bowls”.
• "I would probably have a pretty good time with Calum… Not sexually in any way…"
• He plays the amazing guitar solo in “Out Of My Limit”.
• "I’m gonna be honest but I actually look like a boss as batman, even though I probably am batman."
• Ashton said Luke would die first in a zombie apocalypse for sure. 
• Luke said he loves hot chips.
• Luke’s favorite number is 7.
• Luke said he would date a fan about 2 years younger than he is.
• Luke’s former girlfriend was named Aleisha McDonald.
• Luke’s relationship with Aleisha lasted for about a year.
• Pepperoni is Luke’s favorite pizza topping.
• Luke started school early.
• Luke gets the most nervous before a show.
• He chooses pizza over donuts.
• Luke would rather a baby elephant over a baby Kangaroo.
• Luke farts the most.
• His favorite Sleeping with Sirens song is ‘Let’s Cheer to This’
• Luke’s favorite songs from All Time Low’s ‘Don’t Panic’ album are Somewhere in Neverland, Outlines and To Live and Let Go.
• Luke and Calum both love the movie Anchor Man.
• Luke is the tallest member in 5SOS.
• Luke thinks pizza is the “best food ever!”
• Luke once said that “a boy will tell someone they love them, a man will show it (:”
• If Luke were a chicken he’d want to be covered in Nando’s sauce.
• He likes neck tickles.
• Luke use to be able to ride a skatebord

Ashton Irwin's Facts

D.O.B: July 7, 1994

Birth Name: Ashton Fletcher Irwin

Star Sign: Cancer

Age: 20

Education: Attended/graduatedRichmond High School

Born In: Hornsby

Relationship Status: Single

Height: 6 feet

Parents: Anne Marie (not sure dad)

Siblings: Harry Irwin and Lauren Irwin

Celebrity Crush: Hayley Williams and Jade from Little Mix

Fun Facts:

• Ashton actually has really big hands.
• His favorite movie is Pursuit of Happiness.
• A few weeks before 5SOS recorded their EP, Ashton always thought EP meant Episode.
• He is Aussie and American.
• Ashton’s favorite TV show is Family Guy.
• The boys say Ashton has smelly feet, but apparently he had great foot hygiene until someone spilt a beer down his shoe.
• He used to be in a band called “Swallow the Goldfish”.
• Ashton has a weird obsession with Carl Stefonovic.
• Ashton likes to play on Ikea furniture.
• He says he’s 6ft tall, and all the boys are pretty much the exact same height.
• Ashton’s favorite childhood memory was the first time he played the drums in front of an audience.
• He would date a fan.
• His favorite singer is James Morrison.
• Ashton hated 5SOS before he joined. He hated that they were always mucking around and forgetting words on their youtube videos.
• Ashton- “Shout out to Thug lyf gang” Calum- “Thought you were my cousin, wassup braah” *In New Zealand accent* 
• (On Ustream) Ashton- “5 way marriage, that sounds great. I’ll just assume we’re moving to pakistan to do that.”
• He loves the subject visual arts.
• Ashton says he is good at ice- skating.
• He joined 5SOS in December 2011.
• Ashton says he listens to heavy music.
• Ashton likes banana milkshakes.
• "What type of girls do you like?" Ashton- "Girls that are unique and beautiful in their own way."
• The boys say that Ashton is the best listener. 
• A girl tweeted Ashton asking if he would ever wear crocs, he replied with “guilty”.
• Ashton said he forgets his keys and has to climb through the toilet window all the time..
• "What’s your general view on windchimes?" Ashton: "well ya know I like the way they chime."
• Ashton said he couldn’t live without Luke, Calum and Michael. 
• Ashton didn’t do Mathematics in year 12.
• Ashton said he loves both summer and winter.
• His biggest fears are needles and having his wrist broken.
• Ashton’s favorite album right now is Trey Songz Chapter 5.
• Ashton says he really likes some of The Wanted’s songs.
• His lucky number is 18.
• Ashton loves Reece Mastin.
• (In a photo with Reece Mastin) Ashton: “Wow, you smell great”
• Ashton has a nickname that only his family calls him.
• He wants to have a huge concert and donate all the money to charity.
• Ashton said he tried out on X-factor in November 2010.
• He used to be a state level swimmer.
• He didn’t have his first kiss until he was 16.
• "You know it’s true love when you know your mate’s Maccas order."
• Ashton has lost his license before.
• He likes chicken noodles better than beef.
• Ashton’s favorite brand of shoes is Vans.
• Ashton’s favorite Lipton ice tea flavor is peach.
• He is scared of the dark.
• Ashton does not like olives.
• Ashton’s favorite food is spaghetti.
• His dragon name is Balthasaur.
• Ashton loves Coldplay.
• He has broken his arm and his wrist before.
• Ashton loves blonde jokes.
• His favorite color is red.
• Ashton loves Caramel Koalas.
• Ashton says he would want to be stuck in an elevator with Koshi from Sunrise.
• "What is your favorite thing about a tour?" Ashton: "When the crowd screams your songs back at you! It’s the most amazing thing ever."
• "If you see these weird, tall, bearded guys at our shows they’re not pedophiles, THEY ARE OUR FANS."
• Ashton likes Justin Bieber.
• Ashton is a big Christian.
• He is the most sensitive one in the band.
• Ashton got his first drum set when he was 8 years old.
• If Ashton could collaborate with one of his favourite male and female singers he said it would be Alex Gaskarth & Rita Ora.
• Ash says he is the most embarrassing member of 5sos.
• Ashton’s favourite song to play live is “Year 3000”.
• Ashton snores a lot.
• Ashton’s says his favorite Disney movie is Hercules.
• Ashton wants a band turtle.
• Ashton’s favorite All Time Low song is “Lost in Stereo”.
• Ashton’s favorite song right now is “Singing with the King” by Go Radio.
• Ashton’s favorite Justin Bieber song is “Right Here”
• Ashton wears glasses.
• If Ash wasn’t doing music, he said he would be a music teacher.
• Ash said he would take Calum if he was stranded on a deserted island.
• Ash’s ex girlfriend’s name is Jasmine Dorhauer.
• Other than the drums, Ash can play the saxophone, piano, and guitar.
• Ashton’s parents are separated, and his dad is not around.
• Ashton’s relationship with Jasmine lasted about a year.
• Ashton’s favorite flavor of ice cream is chocolate chip.
• Ashton drew a butterfly on a fan’s wrist so she’d stop cutting.
• One time, Ashton was trying to use a movie theater ticket dispenser as an ATM.
• Ashton can grow a mustache in 2.5 seconds
• Ash use to work at KFC.
• Ashton has a one direction poster in his room.
• Ashton old Twitter username used to be ashtonirwin5sos.
• Ashton’s dog’s name is Indie.
• About two years ago Ashton said he wanted the Nike tick as a tattoo on his foot.
• If Ashton were a girl for a whole day, he would go shopping because he says, as a guy, he can’t shop with a passion.
• Ashton claims he texts like a 12 year old girl.
• Ashton likes his tea/coffee filled with sugar and milk.
• He hates ducks.
• Ashton’s favorite food is pineapple.
• Ashton said his celeb crush was John Mayer and we would turn gay for him.

Calum Hood's Facts

D.O.B: January 25, 1996

Birth Name: Calum Thomas Hood

Star Sign: Aquarius

Age: 19

Education: Year 11 and attended Norwest Christian College

Relationship Status: Single

Shoe Size: 9

Parents: Joy (not sure dad)

Siblings: Mali Koa Hood

Celebrity Crush: Katy Perry

Fun Facts:

• Calum is NOT Asian. He’s Kiwi and Scottish.
• Calum supports Liverpool in soccer.
• He would turn gay for Kellin Quinn.
• Calum’s favourite food is pizza.
• Calum’s sister is Mali Koa Hood and she competed on The Voice.
• The band says that Calum is the most feminine because he has no leg hair.
• Calum prefers brown hair on a girl.
• "Do you like happy meals?" Calum: "YES. WITH EXTRA HAPPY."
• Calum went to Brazil last year because he got picked to represent Australia in soccer. He gave it up to pursue his music career.
• He thinks many people are confused that he’s the only non-blonde, non-white person in 5SOS.
• If Calum was a girl, he would date Michael, Ashton would date himself, and Michael would be lesbian because he loves girls too much.
• Calum’s the best at PDH.
• One of Calum’s many celebrity crushes is Delta Goodrem.
• According to Ashton, Calum has the best “ass” in the band.
• Calum doesn’t like salt & vinegar chips.
• On the Hot 30 twit cam, Calum said his favourite singer is Guy Sebastion.
• "What made you introduce Ashton into the band?" Calum: "Uuggh well… I was on eharmony this one time… and we met."
• The boys say Calum has the best body in the band.
• Calum said the youngest he would date is 14.
• Calum’s favorite ice cream flavor is mint chocolate. 
• He loves Katy Perry.
• Calum writes the most 5SOS songs out of the boys.
• He had a big crush on Alicia Keys when he was younger, and he says “it’s been resparked”.
• Calum tried a Peach Milkshake in London but didnt like it.
• He has a dinosaur tooth brush Adam Wilkinson got him.
• Calum’s mom originated from Auckland.
• If Calum had to be stuck in an elevator with anyone, he would want it to be Katy Perry.
• Whenever Calum is shirt less Luke always happens to be pant less.
• Calum only likes cheddar cheese.
• He loves tea.
• Calum had his first kiss at the age of 13.
• Cal dropped out of high school.
• Cal’s favorite color is baby blue.
• Calum’s ex girlfriend’s name was Maddie Harris.
• Calum’s relationship with Maddie lasted for about 2 to 3 months.
• His mom is from New Zealand and his dad’s nationality is Scottish.
• Calum was a nerd and still is.
• If Calum were a girl, he’d date Michael, Ashton would date himself, and Michael would be lesbian because he likes girls too much.
• Calum’s mum picks out his cologne but he denied it saying “I picked it out, I’m a manly man! It smells like cowboy musk.”
• Calum claims that they found Ashton on eHarmony.
• Calum didn’t even know what ask.fm was until the 5th of June.
• When Calum was younger, he used to run around and take a bite out of apples, then put them around the house.
• At Melbourne airport, Calum struggled to push the luggage trolly and the whole thing ended up on the ground.
• Back in 2012, Calum’s celebrity crush was Kierra Folsom and Jessica Alba.
• Calum hates crossing at Zebra crossings.
• He claims he is a ‘dog’ lover.
• His favorite color is blue.
• Calum says the hate never gets to him.
• Calum’s favorite childhood movie is Monsters Inc.
• Calum likes pancakes more then waffles.
• Just because Calum doesn’t like it when people call him Asian does not mean he has anything against Asians. He loves everyone.
• Calum’s old Instagram name use to be Calzabrah.
• In 2012, Calum had soccer training Monday, Wednesday and Fridays.
• Calum’s favorite pizza topping is ham and pineapples.
• If Calum woke up and was a girl, and had to date a guy, it would be Channing Tatum.
• Calum would rather be a goat then a sloth for a day.
• Calum’s favorite Mcfly song is One for the Radio.
• Calum has never eaten a waffle.
• Calum’s favorite Busted song is Britney.
• His favorite fruit is apples.
• Calum’s singer role model, when he was younger, was Chris Brown.

Michael Clifford's Facts

D.O.B: November 20, 1995

Birth Name: Michael Gordon Clifford

Star Sign: Scorpio

Age: 18

Education: Attended Norwest Christian College

Relationship Status: Single

Parents: Karen (not sure dad)

Siblings: None

Celebrity Crush: Camila Cabello

Fun Facts:

• At Macca’s, Michael orders a large cheesburger meal with no onions, no pickles, a coke, a side of mcbites, and sweet & sour sauce.
• Michael said in one of his tweets that his favorite word was cheeseburger.
• Calum says that Michael is the sassiest.
• Michael is English, Scottish, Irish, German and Australian.
• His favorite pickup line is “nice shoes, lets fuck.”
• Michael is scared of Slender and screamed like a little girl while playing it on a twit cam.
• "I just want to touch all of you"
• Michael is the most obsessive with girls.
• Michael used to eat Macca’s all the time, now he doesn’t eat Macca’s at all.
• Whenever Michael listens to Drake, he says he feels like a unit.
• "I actually don’t like calling you guys fans because you’re like the family I never had"
• "My lips are huge, I’m Mangelina Jolie."
• Michael’s favorite movie is Forest Gump, but Ashton says he’s moved on to Pursuit Of Happiness.
• Michael said if zombies came he would leave the rest of the boys first to survive.
• He once said if he was to have a girlfriend she would have to work at Macca’s.
• Michael’s favorite Disney movie is Camp Rock.
• Michael said that the band would be called ‘Bromance’ if they weren’t ‘5 Seconds of Summer’.
• He says no one cooks in the band, but Ashton would cook the most.
• Michael said if the boys weren’t In a band they would be brick layers.
• Michael’s signature dance move is the sprinkler/lasso.
• His favorite chewing gum flavor is watermelon (or raspberry).
• Michael says the verified tick makes him feel like a majestical unicorn with ‘a big horn’.
• Calum and Michael had never been to a concert before their own.
• He bought Jess Veronica a fish.
• He enjoys long walks on the beach.
• Michael said he can’t live without his computer.
• Michael got an iPhone 5 for his birthday.
• Michael’s favourite chocolate is a Cadbury twirl.
• If Michael could learn to play another instrument he would like to learn the flute.
• Michael’s favorite movie is probably Forrest Gump.
• Michael’s favorite thing about being in 5SOS is getting to meet all the fans.
• Michael would rather eat a jar of vegemite than shave his hair off.
• He has no brothers and sisters.
• Michael’s natural hair color is blonde.
• One of his ex’s names is Geordie Gray.
• Michael dated a girl named Georgia.
• "Michael Clifford does go to the gym… Occasionally"
• Michael would turn gay for his guitar tech and claims he looks like Pete Wentz.
• He doesn’t like the excess chocolate left at the end of his hot milo.
• According to Calum, Michael gives the best cuddles.
• Michael’s stripper name is the Stallione.
• If Michael was a girl, he wouldn’t date himself, he would just have a one night stand.
• Michael is an 8inch or bigger (confirmed by Michael lol).
• Michael listens to T-Pain.
• Michael hates his middle name and doesn’t want people knowing that it’s Gordon.
• On the 12th of February 2012, Calum said Michael’s fringe length is exactly 23.4cm.
• Michael says that the verified tick makes him feel like a majestical unicorn with ‘a big horn’.
• Michael’s signature dance move is the sprinkler/lasso.
• Michael loves paddle pop frozen think shake, chocolate. (Its like an ice cream) 
• Calum and Michael had never been to a concert before their own.
• Michael knows all the fangirl lingo.
• Michael likes all girls no matter what hair color they have.
• If Michael had to shoot one member of 5sos, eat another, and kiss another, he would shoot Calum, eat Luke, and kiss Ashton.
• Michael thinks snapbacks are cool but penny boards are really lame.
• Michael’s favorite band in 2012 was All Time Low.
• Michael says “he’s the biggest gamer ever”.
• At one of their shows with Hot Chelle Rae, someone threw condoms at Michael.
• Michael says you could find everything about him on his Google history/search.
• Michael once serenaded a girl by singing One Less Lonely Girl.
• Dragon Ball Z is Michael’s “favorite cartoon ever”.
• Michael hates his signature.

HI OR HEY RECORDS

xo.Nicola

AGAIN!

I can feel that I'm falling apart slowly...

February 17, Monday. It happened again :( yeah my panic attack at school. It sucks!

Second period, it was our Physical Education second subject I hated since when I was highschool. So we go our gym to do some physical activities, I was standing infront of the bench in the gym I'm looking some of my classmate running and playing a ball then suddenly a one ball came from nowhere hit the wall near by my side, the ball didn't hit me but the impact of the ball was so strong, I look who did it and I saw my classmate from the other corner of the gym and I look at the wall where the ball landed and after that I can't catch my breath already, my knees are shaking and my heart was racing. I can't think straight and afraid already. I'm trying to be relax and just breath but I can't do it, the noise in the gym and all the balls give me so much a panic. Then their was this 3 classmates of mine who are playing infront of me, they are passing the ball to each other and it hit me. I didn't feel anything but my heart, my heart was pounding 2x more, and this 3 classmates of mine was asking me question if i'm okay apparently i need to say Yes for them to just shut their mouth because I don't want people asking me when I'm having a panic. Maybe it's 5 minutes after just in the bench and already go to the Gym comfort room to relax for and let my panic attack go away. My classmate bring me their, to be honest I taught I'm going to be okay inside but I didn't. I was sitting inside the door was little closed but I can hear my classmates scream and noise while playing and the balls. So i stand up and started to walk inside the comfort room I walk in all the corners of the room, I'm thinking but my brain is such a mess already it was full of fear. I put my both hand in my ears to cover it from the noise and I'm already crying. Im shaking also, I was walking fast inside and I'm already looking for sharp objects in the room because I want to cut my hand already but I end up looking for nothing so instead of looking for a sharp object I just punched the wall just to stop my body in shaking because of panicking, After that I sit in the end of the bench in the room crying so much, my classmates starting to come inside, trust me if you get ask while your having a panic attack you are more going to feel the panic. Some of my classmates give me hug but some ask me stupid questions. And I already breakdown everytime someone will come in and ask me the same question over and over again that make me feel so angry because as much as I wanted to stop my panicking and just be calm I can't because of their questions. Suddenly my teacher come inside and ask me but I didn't answer him because I just can't already, so my classmate tell it to him that I'm having panic and He bring me outside of the gym. Just a a little time that I sit outside and the cold air touching my skin and my classmate stop asking me give me calm and I can think straight already, my heart was not pounding so fast, I'm shaking a little but not like the past minutes were I can't control it. After my panic attack when everybody was already at our room I came inside with tea in my hand, I want to drink it to make me more calm but I didn't. When I sit on my chair I wan't to cry so much because AGAIN I didn't control myself for panicking and thinking what would my classmate think of me now? that I'm a psycho girl and then they will already be afraid of me because in any minute I can turn to a psycho girl. As long as I wanted to explain it to them every single details, I CAN'T! Because they can never understand it either way and they will keep asking me the same question and I will keep answering them, I will get tired of it. And after they will know the truth I'm afraid they will use it against me and one day I will end up sitting in the corner of our classroom alone and no one want to talk to me!

Infinite Playlist: Valentine

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

At all the music I heard for Valentines day this song "Valentine" by Kina Grannis is my favorite & I am sure you'll gonna love it too. Just take a little time to listen to it ;) The melody, lyrics and meaning of the song is perfection.

"VALENTINE"

Love, it's a special day
We should celebrate and appreciate
That you and me found something pretty neat
And I know some say this day is arbitrary

But, it's a good excuse
That I love to use baby
I know what to do baby
I, I will love you
I'll love you
I'll love you

Love, I don't need those things
I don't need no ring
I don't need anything
But you and me, cause in your company
I feel happier, so happy and complete

And it's a good excuse
That I love to use baby
I know what to do baby
I, I will love you
I'll love you
I'll love you

Yeah, it's a good excuse
That I love to use baby
I know what to do baby
I, I will love you
I'll love you
I'll love you

So, won't you be my honeybee?
Giving me kisses all the time
Be mine
Be my valentine

So, won't you be my honeybee?
Giving sweet kisses all the time
Be mine
Be my valentine

Oh oh oh oh oh
Be my Valentine

SOMEONE NEEDS A LIFEGUARD

Don't you hate being there for everyone when they need you but when you need them, they're not there to help you? Like you have to be strong for everyone, but they never ask if you're okay. I'm sure I'm not the only one who has ever felt this way. Just know that you're not alone :)

I was been suffering to depression over a years now plus anxiety, panic attacks, bullied and being misunderstood always. STAY STRONG was my phrase when I'm falling apart. Those days and nights I'm crying because of being bullied receiving hurtful words everyday from people's around me killing me inside. I remember when that little boy call me fat it broke my heart and almost kill myself, that night i look into the mirror and stare my body for over an hour and just a minute my tears rolled down in my cheeks, holding my mouth and stomach to stop crying but it didn't work it just get more worst and i fall down crying on the coldfloor until i fall asleep. 2011 First year h.s summer I started staying just in our house, I never go out I prefer staying in house because I was so afraid of all those people's outside, I'm afraid of what they're going to say on me or what will they do on me. Instead of buying my own foods at store I let someone do it its either my cousin or my sister. I just go out when I needed like go to mall or do some projects at my schoolmates house or hang outs. I look like a prisoner for over 2 years just staying at home but I'm okay on it because I can feel my safety for not going out. As long as I know I was never been bored for being just in home, I enjoy it. On that summer my parents buy a personal computer for us and I started being addicted to the games in our p.c and then my parents decided to put a wifi on it so we can used it for chatting to our mom and then i discover a lots of online games. Does cooking, dress up, killing, diner games, do you still remember those games? After playing everyday I get tired of it and discover some websites like friendster, myspace, youtube and facebook and i started being so addicted to it. And in my 2 years being a prisoner in my own house I already write a lots of story, poems and some songs (sadly i left it in Philippines and I misplaced the others). After being a prisoner I decided to go out but I think that was my biggest mistake ever, When my sister won as a Chairman at our barrio I go out and just to figure out what was happening outside I remember people being mistaken because they thought I am my sister (you get it!) I gain weight a lot for just staying at home and that was the day people started calling me "fat" everywhere I go! & every site I log in there are these anonymous people keep messaging me calling me "fat-ass" and other hurtful word tbh I created a myspace account in 6 times after getting bullied in those 6 accounts I decided to take it down and not gonna make an account again even facebook, My facebook account today is my 4th because in some of my account I was keep receiving messages. After being decided to face the judgement of people I just said to myself that I can do it but to be honest I can't but I still didn't go back for being a prisoner even though in everyday of my life was like living in hell.

ANXIETY & PANIC ATTACK

Anxiety is an awful emotion to feel, a feeling that cannot be controlled and you are unaware of it creeping up on you. Different levels of anxiety lie in all of us all the time. Anxiety affects people in different ways.

I suffered from anxiety and panic attack since I was at elementary but the scary part is when I'm elementary I already feel this but I don't know what is called and I just acted normal every time. I remember asking my cousin why I can feel some weird in myself, why I hate messy things and why i want all the things on the right position? She answered me with the 3 words "I don't know" after that I just ignored everything what I feel.

It's understandable that not everybody "gets" what a panic attack and anxiety is. In fact I'm pretty sure more people don't understand than do, which is really sad. I never open up about this to everybody or even to my best friend's when I already find out the real meaning of it but It takes me a months before saying it to them. It's really sad when I open up about this was they struggle to understand exactly how it affects me, or my life, or some decisions that I choose to make. Even after explaning it many times, unless someone has been through a panic attack or anxiety themselves, they will never truly or fully understand your situation.

What exactly is a panic attack?

• A sudden feeling of dread, the sudden urge to push your way through to the nearest exit the whole room shrinking down around you and everybody staring at you and smothering you. In a split second, without you anticipating it, or knowing it's going to happen, your body releases adrenaline. This adrenaline releases as your body is preparing for "fight or flight". Something our brain is programmed to do in a life or death situation. You need adrenaline for a fight in order to be strong, and you need adrenaline for flight, in order to run fast and get away. This would have prepared for cave-dwelling ancestors to fight or run away from danger, but it's much less appropriate to the stresses we encounter today. Clearly, we are not cavemen any more, and don't need to hunt for our food, but this adrenaline is released in situations like tripping over a step, being extremely excited, being on a roller-coaster, being in a fight, in an accident, adrenaline is released into our bodies all the time, but us panic attack sufferers have a "Sensitive Alarm".

What happens to me during a panic attack?

• Adrenaline is releases, thus causing my heart to beast faster and my muscles to tense. I breathe in more oxygen, which my muscles use to turn sugar into energy ( even though i don't need extra energy for anything), Blood is diverted to my muscles. This also caused me to shake. My digestive system shuts down, making my throat dry and making me feel sick. My senses are heightened, I become more aware of sounds and smells around me (It's like someone turned up the volume, and in a busy place, it was loud enough anyway). When my adrenaline floods my body, It can cause a number of different physical and emotional sensations that may affect me during a attack. This followings is what i feel when I'm at panic attack: very rapid breathing or feeling unable to breathe, rapid heartbeat, pains in my chest, feeling faint or dizzy, sweating or shivering, ringing in my ears, tingling and numbness in my hands and feet, hot or cold flushes, feeling nauseous, wanting to go to the toilet, feeling of absolute terror, feeling claustrophobic, I'm being extremely emotional and uncontrollable crying.

Panic attacks come on very quickly, symptoms usually peaking within 10 minutes. Most panic attacks last for between 5 and 20 minutes. Some people panic attacks lasting for up to an hour. My longest panic attack last in hour, it will always spiral, until I can be alone, somewhere I feel comfortable, which can sometimes be hours away. I usually have a panic attack when I was at public, drunk people, trains, bus, festival, crowded places or at school. Almost as though my brain reacts so fast when I'm already going to have a panic attack. Which is annoying and can be undone. I'd turn things All The Time, but it's not because I didn't want to go, I wanted to go more than anything, I just COULDN'T put myself in any situation where I felt I may have panicked. For me it's a great improvement to myself that I can already go out by myself, can buy my own foods, can enter to the school by myself, can walk in the street and can ride a train and bus by myself.

How many times I panicked? When? Where?

I can't count how many times I panicked. When? It can happen to me anytime and everywhere. I'll tell you some panic attack i had one is the night before we are going to be on the plane, I was crying because I was already panicking so much and when we are already at the airport I can feel my heart racing so fast but especially when we are already at the plane, I almost die inside, A lots of thoughts was in my mind and I can't decide anymore, I can feel my knees shaking of nervous, numbness in my hand and feet and I'm sweating. I can already feel I'm so okay after just relaxing and thinking positive but when we go inside the plane I started to have a panic attack again, I go to the toilet to take a breath and try to relax but it get more worst when I flash the toilet it scares me so much, the sound and the water, so I go back to my sit and I remember I cry on my dad's shoulder. After the long flight we landed in Kuwait we waited for 5hrs and I can't feel any panic already until we move in other plane to have a 4hrs flight before reaching Italy and It was a glorious feelings to me that in the 5hrs in Kuwait and 4hrs in the plane again I already feel good and not panicking! This is my another panicking story it happen when I was in my school here in Italy, it happen every time on me at school which is so unhealthy. I first have a panic attack when we are having a recitation at french again I feel those feelings my teacher even said i need to relax but sorry I can't and i don't know how to relax when I'm on that situation it gives me move panic attack when she said my grade on that recitation because I didn't get what grade I want the disappointment feelings give me anxiety, I'm falling on the ground again and never imagine my tears will fall again on that day i hurt myself too because of panicking so much I try to cut my hand using a pen and I succeed on it. I used to it, I feel more okay when I cut my hand while having a panic attack I don't know how it help me. Another is when I'm going to have a recitation again in one of my subject Storia Dell'Arte night before it I review but I there isn't going to brain so i'm started panicking again and I hate that feeling but I can't do anything, I am already feeling to faint looking those papers in my bed and crying so hard when the morning approach the panicking was there again. When I was at the train station I can't go inside the train because I'm panicking so much, as I remember I waited for over 10 minutes in the station until I can already go inside the train. When I was already at school I was trying to be okay and no one should notice it but suddenly as the clock goes tik tok tik tok on my mind and hear the noise around the room I breakdown and I can't already take it, on that day I want to run away and go out in the school but I can't. I cry until my classmate saw it and then the teacher talk to me to be honest that teacher didn't help me anything or what she say it give me more panicking feelings especially when she say I'm going to have a recitation on the other day, I acted normal and say to her that I'm already okay but I'm really not, I just want to stay away from her and don't want to hear her words. I go back to our room with my classmates eyes on me, on that day I want to go home so much.

One thing a lot of people don't understand is that people who suffer panic attacks, DO NOT WANT TO FEEL THIS WAY. We don't want to get on the train and think "I really hope I get to the other end without panicking", we don't want to restrict the way we live because of something we can't control that leaves us feelung mentally and physically drained for days/weeks/months on end. We want to be normal, and carry on with our everyday lives without any added anxiety. I'd love to be able to say "I don't worry about anything, besides the normal things". After a panic attack, I feel so so upset, but mostly anger. Angry at myself for not having any control and angry that I don't know how to make it stop. Then I feel angry because I feel like nobody understands my situation.

In a panic attack I always say "Relax. Calm down. Don't be anxious. Let's see if you can do this. You can fight this. What should we do next? Don't be ridiculous. You have to stay. Don't be a coward. Pull yourself together, Stop being silly, whats wrong with you". But sometimes this is what I say "You can do it no matter how you feel. I am proud of myself. Tell me what you need now. Breathe slow and low. Stay in the present. It's not the place that's bothering you, it's the thought. I know that what you are feeling is painful, but it's not dangerous. You are courageous. Remember that you can do it. All is well"

When I was on panic attack I don't want that someone to distract me with some stupid questions. As I said before, We don't want to say the alphabet backwards or talk about our day, it just highlights the fact that we are having a panic attack, thus creating more panic. Just simply be supportive and reassuring. After a panic attack, Sufferers of panic attack can feel down, depressed, angry, insecure and with a bery low self esteem. It's your job to help us sufferers to feel better about ourselves and to let us know you are there.

OTHER ANXIETY?

Aside from panic attack I also have a OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) - this is characterized by intrusive thoughts that produce uneasiness, apprehension, fear or worry, by repetitive behaviors aimed at refucing the associated anxiety or by combination of such obsessions and compulsions. I'm excessive washing or cleaning, repeating on checking and suicidal thoughts. Having this anxiety is hard because I dont want to be paranoid and potentially psychotic. We, the sufferers of OCD commonly share personality traits such as high attention to detail, avoidance of risk, careful planning, exaggerated sense of responsibility and a tendency to take time in making decisions. I hate the fact that just a little un-organized things make me so angry. My things are always organized, I hate when someone borrow my thing but I get angry when someone don't let me borrow their things. I am so emotional in every thing If someone hurt me or say something not good on me I take it really seriously when they say sorry it doesn't mean it's already okay to me but it's really not, I will act cool on them but there will be still anger in my heart no matter what and I can't explain it how I don't know how to take those anger's away and also my suicidal thoughts will goes around my head and starting to panic, I hate this suicidal thoughts because I don't like to kill myself just words that people say to me and having a bizzare imaginations. & also i have a Social Anxiety Disorder (SAD) - this is the most common anxiety, people suffering from SAD feat a wide range of social situations while others may only show anxiety in performance situations. Having this sucks, being invited on a party but don't know to act and how to joined their conversation because you are too shy and afraid to drop any words.

DEPRESSION

I was been depressed for my whole life but those anxiety and panic attacks give me more depression plus school! If I will rate my depression to a percent it it 99% already. I am living with depression every day of my life from waking up until I go to sleep I feel so depressed. From the time I moved here in italy I become more depressed every single day especially when I already started going to school here. I am so struggling learning their language. I failed to some exams and it gives me more depression. I almost killed myself from this depression but I'm glad I didn't continue it or else I'm not here blogging about my experience. This depression make me look myself stupid, brainless and a really really low self esteem. I NEVER SEE MYSELF HAPPY LIKE WHEN I WAS KID! What I DO when I'm so depressed when no one is on my side to help me on it, I just listen to music. Trying to get busy. Learn a new song. Writing some poem and stories. Drinking tea or hot chocolate.

This is a very quiet personal to me. I never open up to some people about this because I don't want them to say I'm crazy. Well I hope if they read this they will already understand me even just for a little. But the hardest thing on this what no one in my family knows about this. I can't tell it to them I'm afraid that they will think what others people think too and I'm not really close to my family....

Suicide is stupid? You wanna know what is stupid? Hurting someone so much emotionally, that they think suicide is the only answer. BUT darling Suicide is never the answer. I hear that all the time, i know... but it's true. You are loved, beautiful and precious. Imagine when you kill your self from getting bullied, suffering from anxiety it's like you let them win. DON'T FORGET that there is a lot of people still want you in this world and spend more time on you so hang on, Keep that captivating smile and Pray.

CHIN UP BUTTERCUP :)

Valentine's & Single Awareness Day

So valentine's day is approaching already, Ah romance. Just what everyone needs...right? are you ready on that day? do you have a date on that day? or your going solo? Well it's okay if you don't have a date because a valentine's day is not just for a lovers it's also a Single Awareness Day for girls and boys out there like me (: I've never been on a date on a valentine's day but what i do on that day mostly was just stay in home, read books, watch movies, listen to music, eat sweet's and sleep all day sometimes i feel sad but also happy. I just enjoy being single until I will saw some couples being sweet around me. Are you going to ask your crush to be your valentine? Don't be afraid to do it don't think the negative feedback he/she will say, what if he/she said Yes. If he/she said No its okay atleast you ask but....FEAR NOT. You can be happy as a single on Valentine's day. Resist the pressure to couple up if it doesn't happen to be time for you, and celebrate the moment. LOVE YOUR SINGLENESS. Think about the marvelous benefits of being single, from not fighting over a little silly jealousy, making some surprises for your girlfriend or boyfriend and other lovers problem. It's also less responsibilities. On Valentine's day go out and TREAT YOURSELF. Go buy new pretty gorgeous, jewelries, a new gadget, spa or just go to a restaurant and eat whatever you want. Take it as gift to yourself. Gather up your other single girl friends for a night at the movies. Be sure to pick something that's anti romantic - no cappy chick flicks allowed and be sure to get a giant buckets of popcorn to share. You can also send flowers or candy to every single friend of yours. Write a card of the best things about having them as your friend. Dont forget even you're single, you still have a friends. The main message of Valentine's Day is Love. So you make sure to spread it with everyone important in your life and the people who surround you, regardless of you relationship status. And dont worry, there's someone out there for everyone. If you haven't found them yet, it will just make it all the more special when you do. Dont rush about love because it will happen maybe not today or tomorrow but God have plan for you. It's very easy to get caught up at the beginning of a relationship, especially when you click with someone. But there is such a thing as moving too fast. You'll serve your relationship better if you take it slower pace and dont let it become runaway love.

"I just really love this song.." VALENTINE - Kina Grannis

Spread the Love <3

Have a Great Day.

Advance Happy Valentine's

& Single Awareness Day

100 FACTS ABOUT ME

1. I LOVE GUMMYBEARS & TEA!
2. No one knows what is wrong with me.
3. I hate math with a passion.
4. Fandoms are huge part of my life.
5. My favorite movies are: LOL, Peter Pan, The Hunger Games, Percy Jackson, Tangled, The Perks of being a wallflower, August Rush, The Kings of Summer, The First Time, Fun Size, In Time, Pitch Perfect and The amazing spiderman.
6. I spend a lot of time in Internet.
7. My dream is to become a professional writer.
8. I've wanted to go to New York and live there since i was young kiddo.
9. I hate wearing heels, make-up and dresses.
10. My favorite tv shows are: The Carrie Diaries, Dance Academy, Teen Wolf,  and The Tomorrow People.
11. I'm Obssesed to the band name 5 Seconds Of Summer and other bands.
12. I'm a big fan of Justin Bieber and Miley Cyrus (ever since..)
13. I am always updated to the latest songs.
14. i have 1429 total songs on my phone (original, cover & acoustics) and some songs still coming...
15. I'm addicted to some youtubers and youtubers singers.
16. some youtubers i like are:JacksGap, Caspar Lee, Sawyer Hartman, Troye Sivan, Tyler Oakley, Matt Espinosa, Cameron Dallas, Nash Grier, Zoella, Ryan Higa, JennxPenn, PointlessBlog, Oli White and Joe Sugg.
17. Youtubers singer i like: Boyce Avenue, Tyler Ward, Christina Grimmie, Maddi Jane, Elyar Fox, Madilyn Bailey and Jordan Jansen.
18. I'm always the outcast girl at every school i go and the Wallflower at our room.
19. I have 3 bestfriend: Josana, Valerie and Mark.
20. Banana is my favorite fruit & Potatoes and Pumpkin are my favorite vegtable.
21. My first pet must be Monkey because i love monkey.
22. I'm really a shy girl.
23. I suffer from Anxiety, Panic Attaks and Depression.
24. My favorite Holiday is Christmas.
25. I love Winter and when it rain.
26. I hate thunder storm and lighting.
27. I have really bizzare dreams almost every night. I only remember parts of them in the morning though.
28. I'm not into fashion. I dress whatever i saw on my closet.
29. I love acting because i'm such a dramatic person.
30. I hate green beans and watermelon.
31. I overthink everything I do.
32. I'm afraid of everything.
33. Kinder and Hershey are my favorite chocolates!
34. Got bullied! and I used to cut my hand because sometimes i can't hold the pain already.
35. I dont have a good relationship with my family because i suck at everything and not intelligent like my two other sisters.
36. I'm the biggest loser in our school.
37. I was been friendzone 3 times.
38. My first and last heart break make me so depressed.
39. Sunflower and Daisy are my favorite flowers.
40. I've never been go to a date.
41. 16 and still don't have a first kiss.
42. I can fall in love to a girl and a boy.
43. I want to moved in New York and work as a writer there.
44. My Girl crush are: Miley Cyrus, Victoria Justice and Sue Ann Dood.
45. I get jealous to those girls who are so perfectly beautiful and skinny.
46. I dont like thigh gap.
47. I hate snakes, worms, spiders and bugs.
48. My Celebrity man crush are: Luke Hemmings, Taylor Lautner, Logan Lermam, Dylan O'brien, Ansel Elgort, Theo James, Jaden Smith and Austin Butler (Nash Grier, Cameron Dallas, Matt Espinosa and Taylor Caniff- not a celebrity but famous and well known)
49. I can sleep a whole day.
50. I have a great taste of music.
51. I don't find it atractive when boys smoke.
52. I want to date a british guy (as if..)
53. Guys who have blue eyes, brace, dimples, can play guitar or sing and guys who are wearing a beanie are my weakness.
54. Falling in love to strangers for a minute is one of my hobby.
55. I'm talentless.
56. I always failed at everything i do.
57. I'm not a sporty.
58. I imagine a lot of things from the time i wake up until i go to sleep at night. (trust me i can't stop it)
59. I love the name Katniss Zoella and Meadow Forest. I wish i could change my name to that.
60. I want to travel the whole world with my best friends.
61. I get mad and cry easily.
62. People get tired of me easily and end up being alone.
63. I love being alone.
64. I've never been invited to a party.
65. My things are so organized.
66. I'm collecting some cute bracelets and necklace.
67. I hate people who are judgemental and liars.
68. I have a high expectations in love.
69. I'm in love to French Fries.
70. I never had a crush when i was a first year high school.
71. I only have one crush in my high school and my feelings for him lasted in a year and months until he found out because of my classmate.
72. My high school crush was my first heart break.
73. I blame my high school crush for being afraid to fall in love again.
74. One of my biggest fears is that I'm going to accidentally kill someone.
75. I want to get my tattoo when i'm seventeen.
76. I dont wear leggins when i go out because it feel like i'm naked.
77. I fall in love too easily but it's a struggle getting out of it.
78. i'm horrible at communication. If you don't message me first i will never gonna message you up. Yeah.
79. I love to sing but i dont really have a good voice.
80. I believe in Happy Ending.
81. Disney is my favorite.
82. I believe in Unicorns and Mermaid.
83. I have a lot of favorite songs but here are some of it and my all time fave.: Lego House - Ed Sheeran, Never Stop - SafetySuit, One Less Lonely Girl and Be alright - Justin Bieber, When I look at You - Miley Cyrus, Let It Be - The Beatles, 3000 Miles - Emblem3, Whenever You Are, Beside you, Over and Over and Heartbreak Girl - 5 Seconds Of Summer, Sleeping With the Light On - Busted, A Drop In The Ocean - Ron Pope, Somewhere In Neverland and Dear Maria Count Me In - All Time Low, Diana - One Direction, Welcome To My Life - Simple Plan
84. Never Stop by SafetySuit and A thousand Years by Christina Perri will be my wedding song.
85. I always get worried more about other people's feeling than my feeling.
86. I dont believe in Love at First Sight. I believe in Crush at first sight.
87. I believe that Ghost exist because I already saw a ghost.
88. I prefer writing all my feelings in a piece of paper.
89. I can live in a years for being single.
90. I'm insecure to my body.
91. When i was at 6th grade and i graduated i put dentist on my course i want to get but i really don't want to be.
92. I have a crazy obsession to a Dream catcher.
93. I started writing stories, poem and songs when i was at 5th grade.
94. I wish Neverland and Wonderland exist.
95. I'm still stuck to my past.
96. "Girl like you is hard to find nowadays" - someone say that to me months ago and still stuck in my head.
97. I want to go on Disneyland.
98. Paris, New York and London are the places i wanted to travel someday.
99. I hate school and people.
100. I don't want people seeing me crying, sad and lonely because i dont want them to see how weak i am.

WELCOME TO MY LIFE!

HAVE A GREAT DAY!